I pulled up my skirt

Every Monday most of the girls in our class would talk about their boyfriends. They were all having sex and I was a virgin. I kept quiet but I would listen very carefully. I was jealous they had boyfriends.

One Friday I saw the boy I liked was staying late after school. I wanted to know if he liked me so I pulled my skirt so that he could see my thighs I couldn't believe it when I saw a bulge in his trousers.


Then I got a bit nervous. It was late already and I thought to myself that could be dangerous. I decided to run away. Now my school is far from where I stay. It was not far when I saw he had started to chase me. He caught me. I fell down, begging him to let go of me.


“Why would I let go when you called me?" he asked.

He pulled off my skirt and then put his penis inside me. I felt a lot of pain. He didn’t stop. I was confused - had I asked for this? Is this sex or is this wrong? I was scared and ashamed.


Then he said to me, "If you tell anyone be assured that you will die!"

I wasn't going to tell anyone but when I got home my skirt was ripped and had blood on it. My mom was hysterical. She said I had been raped! She took me straight to the hospital where I had an HIV test. They also gave me pregnancy prevention.


The results of the HIV test came out negative and then she asked for the identity of the boy but I refused to tell her. I was embarrassed and I didn’t want to make a scene.

I kept this a secret until now and I still feel guilty because of it.

Rape survivors often feel guilt or shame, or responsible somehow. But being raped is never your fault. Nobody ever asks to be raped.

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